My BDSM Lover completed this task.

Following is his report in black and my response to him in purple. 

Well, i quite enjoyed it. Just then getting to the last questions it started to be a bit frustrated so i was so hot, that it was hard to keep the focus to answer it. Somehow the last couple of questions were a bit hard to answer, don´t know how, just i did not know what to write.

I just love this statement. I can picture you trying to answer the questions, yet finding it hard to concentrate... yum on this! However, I am missing some of the picture What did you have to do between each question? How did it feel. Did the excitement build up? I expect a more thorough report next time, giving me details. 

I rolled the dice using a virtual dice in random.org and got 4, i am glad i was able to cum in 2 minutes!!! :) 

Tell me more about your cum. Did it take all of two minutes or just two seconds?  I want MORE details! I'm a pervert that way!

Question 1: What are your aspirations as a submissive?

My aspirations as a submissive, is for now, to serve you and be trained by you Mistress Nev. I want to grow up as a submissive and keep learning new things, maybe experimenting things and stretching my limits of things i am already able to do. As i said in one of my emails, i love the luxury, lust, psycological dominations side of BDSM much more of the painful side. I see the painful side much more as punishment or as something to tease like for example when using clothesping, wich i love. What i really want to be trained is the ability to be able to cum on command using a trigger (a word) even without any stimuli, like for example a word only you and i know that i would be trained using many tools like classical conditioning, and maybe subliminal messages so i will be able to cum just when i hear that word from you or another Mistress you tell this secret. Like a secret password for an instant cum only you and I know. This can be used for many things like be told to cum anytime you want, or be ordered for frustrated orgasms, even on a public bathroom. I want to be trained to the point when i hear the word i cannot control myself and just cum for you. It is utopic i know, but if you like, i would love to try to be trained for this for you.

While I am honored that you would like for me to be your online Mistress, at this point I am not taking on regular online submissives. My time is limited and although I love to share and be a part of your growth, I can not make the commitment to be a full time online Mistress. In saying that, I've known you for years and see how your submission has grown. You have learned your specific needs and fetishes. I love the thought of a subby boy cumming on my command. I've never been able to achieve this, but do know that it takes many years of training and diligence to be able to attain. My hope for you is that you will find an in-person Mistress to help you with this. I think with your privacy needs and desires, surely there is someone out there to help you with your goals.

Question 2: How do you feel about collars? Collaring?
For a first tought i would say i feel fine about collars. The only problem is that i have a vanilla life with family etc, so i would not be able to use a collar all the time. But for a session or a play party i definetely would use, no problem. Use something as collar (like a dog collar or a belt as collar) in a sesssion, or when performing a task, might be ok, but it would not be possible to use something with your name or anything bdsm related unless in your presence, in a session, or a play party etc. I would say i would not use it in public as well, unless in a play party with you and with a latex hood so nobody would know who i am. :)

For me, collaring doesn't have to be a physical collar. It's one that is wrapped and cherished in ones mind. Your submission to a Mistress is more that just a collar.  It's like a wedding ring, you're still married, even if you take the ring off. As far as in a play session, yes, I do like physical collars. For me, it let's everyone know who is mine and that this boy is taken. I look at the collar around my boy at times and just smile, knowing he is mine. I also have a bracelet for vanilla situations, that he wears all the time. It looks innocent enough, but to us, it represents our core beliefs as a D/s couple. I urge you to think outside the box, to be collared with your mind, not just physically.  As far as a hood goes, that is hot. I know you love latext and sensory bondage such as the hood... grin, that could be very fun!

Question 3: When was the first time you used a sex toy? What was it?
The first time i used a sex toy was when i was about 18 years old. I was so curious how it would be to fuck an artficial pussy that i bought one. Needless to say when i experimented it, i noticed it was a crap and i was a bit frustraded. Then i discovered the egg bullet vibro inside and just got rid of the plastic pussy. I had to place it inside a bag so i could drop it in a public trash to not be discovered by my family! I started then to play with the egg bullet and i loved. I used it one every part of my body even the mouth. I used then on my anus, and soon i discovered i could cum only by taping the egg bullet on my penis and waiting the vibro do his job. It was wonderful i could cum alone withou even using my hands!! It was so addictive that i had to get rid of it after sometime otherwise i would keep using it almost daily and would turn myself in a social outcast!!

I have to admit, I love a great vibe. I call myself a vibe slut. I love to be teased, to be brought right to the edge of a cum, then move the vibe, doing this over and over, damn I love it. I want the vibe right on my clit when I cum, it sends me over and brings such an intense release... yes, for sure, vibes are the best. They are such a basic toy, yet for many women, is one that never is too far from their reach. It's nice to know boys enjoy them as well. I've known men who loose their hardness when touched by a vibe. if it makes YOU cum, then damn we would have some fun!!

Question 4: What is the difference between humiliation and embarrassment?
This is a tricky and difficult one to answer. I would say that humiliation would be something i would do as punishment but not in public and maybe in a play party or a session with other people like for example be ordered to such other slave cock while other mistress watch, that would be really humiliating but something i would do. Embarassment i think it would be something i definetely would like to avoid as it would bring shame or problems to my life. Just be naked in public would be a kind of embarassment. I think sometimes humiliation like for example suck  a high heel would be pleasurable, drink water from a bowl or dish on the floor would be an humiliation but if done privately, as a punishment for example, it can be done, i think embarrassment is something it could only be done privately with you and me otherwise it would bring problems and is something i ask you to avoid for both of us.

I agree with you. I would never want to embarrass you in a bad way, but I would love to humiliate you in a good way! For me, my dominance isn't about shaming. It's about making a boy my boy, knowing that he would do anything for me. If he ever feels a bad embarrassment, then I am not doing my job right.

Question 5: Describe how you would dress for your Mistress/Master if seeing them for the first time.
Well, honestly i never tought about this. I think if just meeting for the first time in public i would dress a casual dress, maybe jeans and t-shirt, really don´t know. If i would meet in a hotel room or a motel i would dress a catsuit or a zentai suit. Or just get naked and use a latex hood in my head while using a hand-cuff or a chastity belt, locked, while i would be naked on the floor, with the key above the bed as an offering of my submission. Really don´t know, maybe use something i know it would please my Mistress.

I love your last sentence. This is exactly what I would want. It goes back to the question about embarrassment. It really depends on where and when we would meet. And your words... "Offering of my submission." That's beautiful.

Question 6 and 7: What are a few of your Mistresses/Masters responsibilities?  (If you don’t have one, please tell me what you think they should be) What are a few of your responsibilities?
Actually i just have you Mistress Nev as my online Mistress, no real Mistress unfortunately. I think some of the responsabilities of a Mistress is to keep in touch with the slave and keep him/her in training constantly, whenever it is possible, toward a goal like the trigger one i said you, guide him, nurturing him, teaching him abilities and new things in Bdsm, so the slave can grow and learn. Teach how to please the Mistress otherwise how the slave would know? I would say the Mistress should control the Bdsm side of the slave. I would say i have 2 lifes a vanilla one and bdsm one, i want you to control my bdsm side and control me, so whenever i think of bdsm i think in you. Also, to keep the safety, privacy, and health of the slave is a must!

Like wise, some of my responsabilities is to keep the comunication with the Mistress, tell hear the truth, my feelings about things in bdsm, and of course, perform the tasks she order, in order to keep growing like her slave. Please my Mistress, learning how to please her, to the point she would be able to order something with just the look of the eye. Keep our privacy. Respect the Mistress feelings and moods, and trust her that she is trying to do her best to train me like her slave. Be able to not be jealous about other slaves so maybe one day i can perform with them side by side for the pleasure of my Mistress Nev or other Mistress she would like us to perform.

I agree with you on this. This is one reason why I can't have an online submissive. I don't feel I can dedicate myself to all their needs. Just be aware that just as the submissive must retain their safety, privacy and health, and dominant must as well. I do promise that I will do a custom task for you when we both have the time to dedicate in the proper manner. 

Question 8: Share a time when your submission helped you in a vanilla situation.
Tricky one to answer but, i think it helped me i stressful situation so i could handle them. Some painful situations where i was able to endure the pain for a moment, like a headache for example. Also, in my vanilla life, it helps me to hold my orgasm while making sex with my wife so i can try to please her and make hear happy before i orgasm. I think i woud not be able to hold my cum for some time if i not had bdsm experiences before. Also i helps me to respect and not have prejudice with other ways to make sex.  

Very well answered. I love the point about you being able to please your wife. Do you find yourself lost in your submission when making love to her? I also appreciate the statement about prejudice. So many people have different fetishes and kinks, we need to respect them all, even if we don't understand them.

Really don´t know what to question you. :)


1) How you discovered your domme and sub side?
If you read my article "How MN Came About" that should explain it. However, I will say, I am still exploring and learning about both sides of me. It's a constant in my life. I've always known I thought differently from 'nillas. I do respect all people and how they live their life, but knew that I felt differently than most, like by brother or sisters. It wasn't until around 1998 that I really discovered there were people out there who had the same thoughts and urges.

2) Sometimes i have the will of dominate someone, maybe you could be my sub for a day? :)
Uh, no, I can't be a sub for a day. For me, I am always submissive and always dominant, depending on the relationship. I think there has been only one or two men in my life that I was really submissive to. The others tried, and I tried, but I always ended up dominating them... ;) I can role play though, but again not with you. I can't get it straight in my head... it confuses me. I can't submit to a person I dominate, and vice-versa, I just can't make it work in my head!